So many baby items

About a week ago, I started looking at things to put on my baby registry. I went to Target yesterday and I just about fainted. Not because I was getting hungry and tired but because I went to the baby section in the store. I couldn't believe all these things that I will need to learn about. I was feeling overwhelmed. I've already started the registry online. I found some really cute clothes but I decided it would be much easier and more fun to go to the store and see what was there. I realized that a Saturday evening was a popular time to register for other moms-to-be as well. I noticed that one of the moms had one of her kids with her so I thought that she would have experience with this. I asked her about which pacifier was the best and if she could recommend one. She was very nice and told me that the Gerber brand was good, especially the silicon kind. I thought to myself, "That was just a pacifier. What about all the other stuff? I have no idea about all this baby stuff."
Then I looked at the bottles. Oh boy! I think I'll ask some moms again for their advice and their ideas. There are different types of nipples, different sizes, brands, etc. I didn't know that bottles could be so complicated.
The car seats and the strollers, that's another story. I guess I'm going to save that for last. I don't know what kind is the best. I think I'm going to look at some other stores to see what their selection is.
So I went home feeling tired. I also began to realize that being a new mom is going to be quite overwhelming.

Hooray! Surprise! Yippee!

David and I are very happy and excited parents. The ultrasound was great! It was quite obvious that it is one baby and not twins. (We thought that I was carrying twins from the ultrasound that I had in February.)
I was so surprised that there was so much detail and that our baby was moving so much. It was such a big improvement from the ultrasound that we had a few months ago.
Babies grow really fast.
The technician asked us if we wanted to know the sex of the baby (if she was able to tell). We said yes. So she looked around and zoomed in and said "I'm 90% sure that it's a boy"!
That means that I'm between 16-20 weeks or so. That's suppose to be the time that you can tell the sex of the baby.
The heartbeat was loud and was in the normal range at 150 beats per minute. He was moving his hands. It was an awesome experience. We were so excited!
We got to have a copy of the ultrasound picture. I'm so glad to have it.
Here is a picture of our little baby.

Doctor appointment

Well, I had the prenatal exam today and have officially started the prenatal care. Yeah! The doctor seems to be great and the nurses are nice. I am scheduled to have an ultrasound on Thursday.
My doctor thought that I was about 16 weeks when he measured me today. We should know more on Thursday.
Here's what was crazy: He said that the ultrasound that I had in February was not quite accurate. Interesting huh? It wasn't done by an OBGYN, just a regular practicioner. So he basically wants to start over and be more thorough and accurate. That's good to hear.
I feel a lot better and more relaxed that I have a doctor now and that I have started the prenatal care. Now I am not just waiting around and wondering.
I don't have much to say but I wanted to give an update. David and I are looking forward to Thursday.

I'll keep you all posted.

Patience is a virtue

I'm not sure if this title fits but it sounded good to me.
I am a little frustrated because I called my OBGYN today because I wanted to know if I have to do anything special for the appointment tomorrow. I'm not sure what to expect at a prenatal appointment. But I did expect to have an ultrasound. David and I and everyone else who I've told are looking forward to hearing what we find out. But..... when I talked to the receptionist at the OBGYN today, she said that it is up to the doctor to decide if we can have an ultrasound. I didn't think it worked like that. I thought that we could request an ultrasound. Also, she (doctor's office) said that I need to bring in a copy of the first ultrasound report that I had back in February. So I called my other doctor and had them fax this report to the OBGYN for tomorrow's appointment.
So basically there is no guarantee that we can have an ultrasound tomorrow. I got my hopes up for finding out if we're having twins, and a more exact due date and how far along I really am. I'm confused about how far along I am. I signed up for some baby/pregnancy websites and they have a due date calculator. When I put my last official menstrual period into the calculator it says I'm 18 weeks. Whoa! Our doctor who I went to in February wasn't too sure either. He thought maybe I'm 13-14 weeks now, but no one knows for sure. I'm really struggling with this waiting and not knowing stuff. I have a lot of unanswered questions floating around in my head and in my abdomen.

Getting out and about

Last night I was able to go to a young adult Bible study with David. It was great. I haven't been there in about almost 2 months. It was so nice to see my friends again. Most of them already knew about you know what. It was crazy though because I was wearing my new maternity jeans (very fashionable and comfortable I might add ). I can hardly believe that I have already started showing. My other jeans don't fit and are uncomfortable.
I was so encouraged to find out that I have people who have been praying for me. It felt so good to talk to other females about my pregnancy too.
I made sure that I had a full stomach before I left so that I would feel ok when I was there. I felt good for most of the time until the end when I started feeling icky again. But at least I was able to go and enjoy myself after not feeling like going anywhere for a while.

Aches and pains

I've been having all kinds of weird aches and pains lately. My joints, my lower abdomen, my head etc. I hope it's normal. I wonder if these aches and pains are part of the transition between the first trimester to the second trimester. I don't know. I guess I'll have to find out on Tuesday.
4 more days until we get to see our baby on the screen (and we can find out if it's one or two babies!) Yeah! I can hardly stand the suspense.

I'll keep you all updated after Tuesday's main event.

no maternity clothes???

I was so surprised and actually ticked today when I went to Mervyn's and they said they didn't carry maternity clothes. Is it out of style to get pregnant? Do they think it is a season like the winter? I don't get it. I thought sure I would be able to find what I needed at Mervyn's. Hmmmmph.
So I went to Target instead. I was able to find a few summer outfits and a skirt that actually fits me.
My shopping trip wasn't a total loss. I just wonder if I go to another clothing store and find out the same thing, that they don't carry maternity clothes either.

Getting better?

So far it's been two days and I have been feeling better and I haven't cried in two days straight. Yeah! I'm approximately 13 weeks now. But hopefully that should be confirmed soon.

I made an appointment with the OBGYN for next Tuesday. That was the soonest that they could get me in. But at least things are moving forward. Slowly but surely. It has been crazy trying to get an OBGYN and even trying to get the right Primary care Physician in the first place. It's a very time consuming bureaucracy. It was very frustrating how the health insurance didn't have current records and sent us our insurance ID cards with a doctor who no longer works at that office. How pathetic! Anyway, I'm trying to look on the bright side. After next Tuesday morning assuming everything goes well, I should be able to FINALLY see how my baby is doing on the ultrasound(and if it's one or two!)after waiting for 2 months.

The moving/living situation is still up in the air and it may be for a while.
David's car repairing hassle is still a hassle and a big, fat pain. But I'm trying to be confident that it will be fixed by the end of the month.

I'm trying to think clearer and not to be so overwhelmed with irrational emotion. But I need the Lord's help.
I also want to say "Thank you" to everybody who has been praying for me and David. This has been difficult but the Lord will carry me through.

Nausea and emotions

I don't understand how so many women put up with this. I've been told that we are strong and can handle anything blah, blah, blah. I can't wait until I actually start to realize that this terrible lousy horrible first trimester is worth it. So far my 12 weeks is going out with a bang. It doesn't want to go away.
Well I say "Be gone already!" This is like a sickness or a horrible thing that I wouldn't want to wish on anybody. It's almost like having the stomach flu for 3 months. Except having the stomach flu would be so much better because then you could actually take peptobismo or something to relieve the symptoms. But not with this morning sickness. I can't take any medicine or over the counter stuff to help it to go away. Every little thing that I look at for nausea or upset stomach says "Do not take if you're pregnant or nursing or consult a doctor before taking this product" I've tried that and the doctor said exactly what I thought he would say. Phooey!
Instead I have to just cry my eyes out and hang on to the toilet for dear life.

I never dreamed that being pregnant would be so horrible. I didn't know what to expect at all. I've heard about it. But I just thought "It won't be so bad".
But lately, it's killing me. And I have to just sit and wait and say "It will pass".
Also, I have to hope that my baby is ok and everything is fine. (Up-chug, up-chug, barf, cry, and cry some more)

What makes this worse is that I am not a naturally calm person. I mean I've always gotten stressed about my jobs, the traffic, the weather, etc. So being pregnant is not a good thing right now.

God is teaching me something. I know it but I don't know what it is. I'm struggling with this so much and it's so hard for me when I pray and tell him how awful I'm feeling and then I wake up the next day feeling worse and it's pooring down rain outside. Please help me to realize that He has a plan and that He is with me every step of the way.

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Stressed

I know I need to just let go and know that God will take care of everything and that he knows what I need, but today I can't. It's probably the good 'ol pregnancy hormones again.
I just can't seem to relax and say "it will all work out".
I feel like I have to get this out. It's been bottling up for quite a while.
The things that are bothering me are:
1. Where are we going to live when the baby gets here? The houses are expensive and we don't know what we can afford and we don't really know what our options are. Grrrrr.....
2. David's car is in the repair shop and has been for about a month. The people who are suppose to be working on it seem to be incompetent. So that means we only have 1 car right now. He had to get an operating permit from DMV but he only has it 'til the end of April.
3. Our prenatal care/OBGYN appointment. I mean, come on... I'm 3 months pregnant and it's very difficult to just sit around and wait and wait.
4. If we do move to a different area somewhere in California, we will have to change our OBGYN doctor. What a pain! All this waiting to get a doctor and then if we move we'll have to wait again......!!!!!!!! HMOs can be sucky. I wish this could be better but we have to go through this California government program. It seems to be the only way for us right now.

So that's 4 things that are stressing me out. I am sorry that I sound so negative. But hey at least I can blame it on the hormones.

When I think about David's car and the fact that I'm complaining about only having 1 car right now. I should be thankful. I know some people who only have 1 car all the time and they don't complain. At least I don't hear them complaining.

I feel like I have lost 2 months of my life already. I just want everything to smooth out and be normal. But of course that wouldn't be life? Life be smooth and wonderful? Yeah right......

Fur therapy

I love cats. My mom gave me this picture. I always remember that my parents had so many cats in their driveway at home. They were strays. Supposedly they belonged to the neighbors but they (the cats) were always hanging around our house.

I wish that David and I could get a cat. But both of us are allergic and it's not very convenient to have a pet in our apartment.

I've decided to take a little break from talking about pregnancy. Since I like cats so much and they are great fur therapy, I decided to put some pictures on here.

This is a picture of my old cat Bumpers. I remember him fondly. He had a funny personality. He was put to sleep sometime last year I believe. I was really sad when my mom told me that.


Whenever I see a cat, I smile. I hope some day I can have one of my own.

hanging in there

Here I go again, talking about my pregnancy. It seems to be a recurring topic for me these days.

Wow! This is an interesting post, huh? It even has a picture of a can of soup on it.
Yep, soup has been a big part of my diet for the past month and a half. How exciting!
I can tell you're all on the edge of your seats with anticipation.
I wish I had something more interesting to say. I could talk about how yesterday I was an emotional cryingcase. That would be amusing wouldn't it? That also seems to be an every day occurrence. Crying that is. Crying about everything or nothing. Yesterday I had a bad case of the "poor me(s)". I was feeling sorry for myself all day. I am so pathetic right now.

I am really looking forward to the day when I wake up and feel like I'm on top of the world. :-) Hopefully, that should happen in about 2 weeks.
I hope that next week I can also share some good news about the prenatal appointment and the next ultrasound. I still have get an OBGYN and make that appointment. Basically I am waiting on our health insurance to get their butt in gear. It seems like it's taking them forever. David and I are really anxious.

Someday soon I hope to put a picture of me on here so you all can see my little belly growing. Won't that be funny?

Nothing to be scared of....but I can still imagine all kinds of things.... :-)

I felt relieved after I got home from the doctor's appointment today (our regular doctor, because we don't have an OBGYN yet) Actually, I started to feel better as I was talking to him. David went with me because he was getting a bad cold. So he got some medicine to help him to get well.

The doctor said that it's perfectly normal to be vomiting so much and even suddenly with out much warning. He even said it's normal to be afraid. Most pregnant(especially newly pregnant) women are afraid and worried at one time or another.

I think that the thing that helped me most is when the doctor said that I should be feeling better in about 2 weeks. Today, he estimated that I am approximately 10 weeks or in my 11th week. But the catch is that I may not feel immediately better after 12 weeks, but I should gradually feel better. :| He also drew me a little chart/drawing of what stage I am at in my pregnancy. Pictures help me a lot. I think he is a great doctor.

I have a new sense of peace though. Even though the rest of the day was difficult because I was feeling sick, I think I can deal with this.

The other cool thing was after the appointment, David and I decided (I sort of twisted his arm a little) to go to BabiesRUs. It's a great store. I'm glad he was feeling up to it even though he was sick. But I was also surprised that I seemed to forget about my nasty, sick problems that I had this morning.

We both enjoyed looking at the strollers, car seats, clothes etc. There was so much baby stuff. I mentioned in an earlier post that I wanted to register at this other store called Bergstroms but now I'm torn between these two. I may decide to register at both. :-)

Also, in the past few weeks or so I have been feeling some interesting fluttering feelings in my abdomen. So that gets me excited too. It will be at least 6 more weeks until I start to feel the first kicks though. :-D

scared

I'm really scared today. I woke up super early today because I was so sick. I tried to eat some crackers and then about an hour later, it didn't stay down. So I tried some cream of wheat. That's suppose to be easy to digest, but today it wasn't.

I'm going to the doctor today because I've never thrown up this bad since I've been pregnant. Nothing is helping. I just can't keep anything down.

I'll try to keep you all posted with any new news.