Nausea and emotions

I don't understand how so many women put up with this. I've been told that we are strong and can handle anything blah, blah, blah. I can't wait until I actually start to realize that this terrible lousy horrible first trimester is worth it. So far my 12 weeks is going out with a bang. It doesn't want to go away.
Well I say "Be gone already!" This is like a sickness or a horrible thing that I wouldn't want to wish on anybody. It's almost like having the stomach flu for 3 months. Except having the stomach flu would be so much better because then you could actually take peptobismo or something to relieve the symptoms. But not with this morning sickness. I can't take any medicine or over the counter stuff to help it to go away. Every little thing that I look at for nausea or upset stomach says "Do not take if you're pregnant or nursing or consult a doctor before taking this product" I've tried that and the doctor said exactly what I thought he would say. Phooey!
Instead I have to just cry my eyes out and hang on to the toilet for dear life.

I never dreamed that being pregnant would be so horrible. I didn't know what to expect at all. I've heard about it. But I just thought "It won't be so bad".
But lately, it's killing me. And I have to just sit and wait and say "It will pass".
Also, I have to hope that my baby is ok and everything is fine. (Up-chug, up-chug, barf, cry, and cry some more)

What makes this worse is that I am not a naturally calm person. I mean I've always gotten stressed about my jobs, the traffic, the weather, etc. So being pregnant is not a good thing right now.

God is teaching me something. I know it but I don't know what it is. I'm struggling with this so much and it's so hard for me when I pray and tell him how awful I'm feeling and then I wake up the next day feeling worse and it's pooring down rain outside. Please help me to realize that He has a plan and that He is with me every step of the way.