Positivity not negativity

I made up a word. According to the spell checker, positivity is not a word. Negativity is though. Isn't that interesting? Speaking of negativity, I am in the process of working on my resume. But a big part of me keeps thinking "why bother and what's the point?"
Before I go into the detail of my resume and how negative I have been acting towards it and live altogether. I want to tell you about our experience at the beach yesterday evening. It was grand. Actually, it did seem to help to have a change of scenery. Apparently a lot of other people did too because for a Wednesday evening there was a lot of people there. In fact the people was such a problem that when I went back to the car to get a box of kleenexes and some hand sanitizer(because public beaches are not the cleanest places, and we wanted to eat with out getting sick or grossed out) a person in a car was waiting in the parking lot and she asked me if I was leaving. Huh..... the nerve of someone..... I got a little irritated because it seems like it always happens down here in Southern California. Wherever you go to park there is always a line and people asking if you are leaving. It's best to just leave the car and don't come back to it until you are really ready to leave. You can't just sit in the car and relax anywhere because people are going to be waiting behind you with their turn signal on just to tell the other people know that they saw the spot first. (I'm sure you know the type: "I was here first......" I really hate that way of thinking) So meanwhile, when David and his sister and her friend started to roast some hot dogs, we noticed that the people next to us decided that they would burn something that didn't want to be burned with flame. Instead it wanted to be burned with smoked (if that is possible). A lot of smoke....... And it was blowing directly our way. At first I was thinking "how rude of those people". But then I thought it probably wasn't their fault. Then I noticed that they had a guitar and that they were singing some Christian songs. I thought that it was refreshing to be at the beach in Southern Cal and have some other Christians sing. Anyway, that is pretty much the end of my negative story. When we got home, our clothes and hair smelled like smoke. It wasn't pleasant.

hot weather

It is hot today. The weather has been hot for the past 3 weeks or so. Actually it has been hot and humid. That makes it worse. Anyway, our apartment has been hot and it is hard to keep it cool. Also, I have noticed that the hot weather is bothering other people too. In fact, they are being downright crabby. Well this is going to be short because David and I are planning on going to the beach this evening. I think a change of scenery would do us some good. I'll let you know how it goes.

This is not fun

I'm going to apologize right now and tell you that I am not very happy right now. I want to move. I really hate Southern California. I hate the fact that David and I went to the park and when we came back this evening, I was following a car into our lovely apartment complex and guess what?, the car was trying to park in our parking place. We have to reserve an extra parking space because the parking is so terrible here. I did not have much self control when I saw that the person was trying to take our spot. We were on a waiting list for almost 1 year just for this parking space. Oh and we have to pay an extra $25 for it too. Lovely isn't it? What kind of living arrangement is this anyway? But wait, it gets even better. Did I tell you how many car breakins we have had since we've moved here? Ok, I really don't have the time to go into it now. But really it does get better. Check this out.....We have to stay here because of what......? A job..... or lack there of...... We can't afford to move and we have no guarantee that there will be a better job somewhere else. Or at least a job that's not going to be a "temp to hire" or something worse. Maybe I should just change the title of this blog. It is getting to be more fun as I type this. I feel pressure about getting another job. But the problem is I don't want to. I think the main problem that I am having is that I don't know what I can do. I am doubting if I really like being a receptionist. I had this great idea to go to school and get an administrative assistant certificate. I thought to myself, " Now that's something that I could do. I could put this on my resume and it'll be great. I don't even have to use to very much math. " Great........ And now I am wondering what was I thinking. So basically what I am trying to say is that life is great. I can't wait to wake up tomorrow and start another day. I'm so excited I can hardly contain myself. I'm having the time of my life. Both David and I together are having a blast. Ok, I think maybe I need to calm down. Please don't take these blogs too seriously. I just need to get some of my thoughts out. Ta ta for now.

The purpose of Trials

You mean there is actually a purpose after all? When I read some of the verses in the Bible that talk about trials, I usually laugh to myself. Although sometimes I cry. "Consider it pure joy, my brothers whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance"..... etc. James 1.2 and 3 (NIV translation) These verses are all well and good but how does one person actually consider it all joy when they feel like their world is falling apart? I really don't have an answer for that. I just think it is helpful to read verses especially when the heading above the chapter or verse reads : "Trials, the purpose of trials." There is another verse in 1 Peter 4.12 "Dear friends, do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed." What I think this verse means is that we should be glad that we are having trials and suffering like Christ suffered. He suffered for you and me. I guess when I think of that, it makes my problems not seem so bad. It definitely helps to know that my savior went through trials that were much worse. As I have been reading the Bible lately, I am realizing that there are many different verses that are meant to encourage me. Or at least to get me thinking and to get my thoughts focused on something much, much better. It is so much better to think of Bible verses than to be negative and to think what do I have to live for? We have a huge hope and a promise. Jesus will NEVER let me down. The only person who will let you down and discourage you is Satan. I can certainly smile and rejoice in the fact that some day we will be with the Lord forever. I can't imagine what that will be like. Can you?

jumping off a job

Getting a job is almost like jumping off a diving board and into a pool. Isn't though? Or maybe like jumping off of a cliff. A very high cliff. Maybe I'm just confused.... This is how I have been lately. Confused. I got a job about 4 months ago. I had a pretty good impression that the job was going to be stable. I thought I would be able to stay for a while and grow with the company. I got that impression when I had the interview. I was unpleasantly surprised last Friday in the afternoon when my boss called me into her office. She said "There have been some changes that are taking place....." and she said some other things but I heard the most important part; that my job would be ending in about 2 weeks. The other person who had my job before I got there, is getting that job back. Basically I'm being bumped out of my job. You may think that I am complaining or whining or something. But right now I just feel lost. I don't know what to do. Some people may think that is a great feeling, but I don't know. I guess I should be thinking positively. Like "Isn't this great, who knows what is waiting for me out there." That just made me think of one of my favorite movies which is called " Captain Ron". This picture by the way is at my old job. The one that I got when I first moved down to Southern California. So much has changed since then. Wow. Well, that is another subject and another blog for a different time. Right now I am supposed to be going on and on about my unfortunate job problem. I think it will be nice to have some time off from work. But the big question is, What will I do? Where will I go? (Oh that's 2 questions. Oops) I just don't feel ready to jump into another job right now. So....... I am going to rest on these thoughts. Actually that is another problem. I can't seem to rest lately. I seem to be caught up in my problems. Problems that my husband is having and problems that I am having. I care so much about him that his problems are becoming my problems. I think that is normal though. Ok, now I think I am ready to end this blog for now. I'll continue with this some other time.

Trial

I am going through a trial right now. I don't know how long it will last. Actually my husband and I are both going through it. We have been praying and we just feel that our prayers are hitting the ceiling. This is so discouraging. Is the Lord there? Does he really care? It is so hard for me to realize that he cares and that he knows the number of hairs on my head. What a wonderful God we have. I don't understand it at all. It is so difficult for me to praise the Lord when I am having problems and going through a trial. There is a song called "Blessed be the Lord." The words go something like this, " When the world's "all as it should be", when the sun's shining down on me. Blessed be your name. The chorus or the next verse is "On the road marked with suffering, though there's pain in the offering, Blessed be your name. You give and take away, my heart will choose to say.....etc. It is a great song. I realize that this little blog is pretty much a bunch of thoughts thrown together. It doesn't always make a whole lot of sense.

brother

My brother is a great brother. You can visit his website it's pretty cool. I talk to him a lot. I am so glad to have some one like him for a brother. There are times when I wish I had a sister but naaaah. He is encouraging and funny and understanding.