I feel stuck
I'll try to explain what I mean. I want to sound positive but I'm afraid that this post may sound like I'm in a bad mood again. I'm not really in a bad mood but I'm just having a problem with some life situations.
For a while now I have been struggling with the fact that David works from home. In the living room in a 1 bedroom apartment. Some times I just can't see the advantages of it.
I think what makes it bad is that I don't work. I was going to school (until I was too sick to think about anything else) so that kept me busy for a while but now it seems that I have too much time on my hands. It's not always practical to go to a store or to get out the apartment. Some days I am too depressed to do anything. Also, the weather has something to do with it. I don't know what is going on with this weather but it's Southern Cal and it's suppose to be sunny. The weather people say that it's turning into "May Gray". Next it's going to be "June Gloom". That means no sun for 2 months.
When it's overcast and ugly outside, I don't feel like doing much and I don't feel like going for a walk in the park.
The weather seems to affect my mood and my desire get outside and I don't know what to do about it.
I have to think of some brilliant way of dealing with the fact that my husband works from home in the living room.
On days that he works, I can't talk to him because it interrupts him. I can't listen to the radio loudly or listen to CD's to help me to get out of my mood. I can't watch TV either because it's in the living room and it interrupts him.
I don't have the liberty to go shopping just for fun. Plus, going shopping is not something that I can do unless I really need something. We are trying to save up for a house so we can have room for our baby.
I am probably just exaggerating but this has been weighing on me for a while now.
The other problem is that I can't do too much these days because I don't have the energy. I get a lot of sleep but even if I do laundry and dishes, I'm tired for the rest of the day.
It seems to be a bit better now that I'm not feeling as sick as I was. Boy was that tough to deal with.
There is a possibility that we may have to stay here and to me that is impossible. I don't see how that will work. A new baby and a husband who works from home? How can we fit a bassinet into our bedroom?
This is why I've been feeling stuck. It is so hard for me to realize that God does know what we need. I am having a hard time thinking like a Christian and depending on God. Satan just gets in the way and wants me to think negative about everything.
For a while now I have been struggling with the fact that David works from home. In the living room in a 1 bedroom apartment. Some times I just can't see the advantages of it.
I think what makes it bad is that I don't work. I was going to school (until I was too sick to think about anything else) so that kept me busy for a while but now it seems that I have too much time on my hands. It's not always practical to go to a store or to get out the apartment. Some days I am too depressed to do anything. Also, the weather has something to do with it. I don't know what is going on with this weather but it's Southern Cal and it's suppose to be sunny. The weather people say that it's turning into "May Gray". Next it's going to be "June Gloom". That means no sun for 2 months.
When it's overcast and ugly outside, I don't feel like doing much and I don't feel like going for a walk in the park.
The weather seems to affect my mood and my desire get outside and I don't know what to do about it.
I have to think of some brilliant way of dealing with the fact that my husband works from home in the living room.
On days that he works, I can't talk to him because it interrupts him. I can't listen to the radio loudly or listen to CD's to help me to get out of my mood. I can't watch TV either because it's in the living room and it interrupts him.
I don't have the liberty to go shopping just for fun. Plus, going shopping is not something that I can do unless I really need something. We are trying to save up for a house so we can have room for our baby.
I am probably just exaggerating but this has been weighing on me for a while now.
The other problem is that I can't do too much these days because I don't have the energy. I get a lot of sleep but even if I do laundry and dishes, I'm tired for the rest of the day.
It seems to be a bit better now that I'm not feeling as sick as I was. Boy was that tough to deal with.
There is a possibility that we may have to stay here and to me that is impossible. I don't see how that will work. A new baby and a husband who works from home? How can we fit a bassinet into our bedroom?
This is why I've been feeling stuck. It is so hard for me to realize that God does know what we need. I am having a hard time thinking like a Christian and depending on God. Satan just gets in the way and wants me to think negative about everything.
posted by Becky @ 1:36 PM
2 Comments:
At 5:19 PM ,
Dinybaby said...
You mentioned that you feel tired. I wonder if you tried to grab David (when he's not working) and go outdoors and walk. It is great excercise and can build your endorphins (spelling?). It has great healing benefits. Planting some flowers is great therapy too. Love U
At 6:07 PM ,
Anonymous said...
My husband got me a radio/CD player with head phones. (We then got a cheap 'fanny pack' carrier for it from Wal-Mart.) I can listen while working in the yard. When in the kitchen, our kids appreciate not being blasted out with Dr. Laura or Skip Ingram...
I second the "take walks" and "plant something" suggestions. I didn't garden last year because of the added activities surrounding Beck's wedding - and was emotionally compromised all year! Last weekend I planted corn and beans, and feel better already. :)
I found the best priced healthy flowers at Lowe's. Pragmatically, if you like tomatoes, they'll give you fresh fruit (with vastly superior flavor) from a patio pot as well. Most of them will need support - which is well worth it! A squash plant or two will keep your meals featuring zucchini, etc. I'm partial to Sunburst, a Patty Pan variety, which I think tastes better than others. Swiss chard is a wonderful leafy green vegetable that does better than spinach in warmer weather and packs a bit of good nutrition.
My youngest would likely offer very insightful comments about having a business phone in her living room - coexisting with several babies. Difficult! Love and prayers!
~Beck's Mom~
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