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Thursday, July 06, 2006

What to do? What to do?

I'm typing this because I am stressed. I know I do this a lot. I'm sorry but I have received some comfort from the comments on here. (Thank you all so much :) )Usually when I post a blog, I feel better after I type.
I don't want my blog to become a diary but today it may seem like it is.
I struggle with this from time to time and today it is back. The problem that is coming to the surface again is the fact that my husband works from home and I can't do certain things while he's there. I want to clean and vaccuum but I can't because it is distracting to him. I have to wait until the evening or maybe a weekend.
This brings up another stress. What happens when we have a crying baby in the apartment? That's bound to happen from time to time, right? Babies cry and cry and sometimes there is nothing anyone can do to calm them down.

See, we live in a 1 bedroom apartment and I keep trying to rack my brain to come up with ideas to deal with this. My husband and I seem to be getting in each other's way and it adds to the stress of daily life.
I realize that we are planning and praying that we will be able to move to a bigger place soon. But I also realize that moving is a big decision and therefore adds more stress. I guess stress in unavoidable in life.

I remember that back in January and before I knew that our lives were going to change dramatically, our 1 bedroom was just fine.
I mean, I was busy. I was either taking classes during the day or I was working during the day or both. I had a busy schedule. Now, the Lord had other plans for us that are way better. But it's so difficult for me to completely rely on him and trust him that this will all work out in the end.

It's crazy how I feel so stressed about all these things and at the same time I've got a baby growing inside of me.

I have considered doing something like knitting, crocheting or something like that, but I seem to have a problem with sitting still in the bedroom. I kind of feel like the world is passing me by. I also want to plant some plants/flowers outside but that seems to be too much of a challenge right now.
I'm not sure what to do. I guess I'm going through a dry spell or a drought in my life right now.

I keep trying to repeat this verse and look at it each time I feel this wave of emotion coming over me. "So don't worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring it's own worries. Today's trouble is enough for today." Matthew 6:34, NLT.
I have this taped on my computer screen.

Here's another great one: "God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging." Psalm 46,v.1-3 NIV.

4 Comments:

  • At 9:27 PM , Blogger Becky said...

    thanks Comfortablycrazy. I like Isaiah a lot too. Thanks for the verses and the encouragement. :)

     
  • At 5:40 PM , Anonymous Anonymous said...

    "And the Lord will continually guide you, and satisfy your desire in scorched places, and give strength to your bones; and you will be like a watered garden, and like a spring of water whose waters do not fail."
    Isiah 58:11

     
  • At 11:16 PM , Blogger SAJ said...

    I had the same concerns with Toby working at home as well... and amazingly it is working way better than I was so afraid of. Sure there are days when it doesn't go so well, but really your mom is right. The Dad's kick into gear when they need to. They just can't help themselves as they fall madly in love with their child.

     
  • At 11:41 PM , Blogger Becky said...

    Thanks SAJ. I keep hoping that happens. I'm pretty sure that once he sees baby z, his prorities will change.

     

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